So, this happened this morning…
Last Monday I posted about how deferring Chicago to 2016 was absolutely not an option. I think that it was already in the way back of my mind though. I tried to keep it back there but by Wednesday it was all I could think about. As much as I tried to convince myself that there was no way that I was going to hit that defer button, deep down in my gut I knew that it was the right decision which unfortunately needed to be made. I went back and forth with myself over the last couple of days but finally came to the conclusion that Chicago is not in the books for me this year.
It comes down to two different factors -> enjoyment and money. There’s no doubt in my mind that I would (barely) finish the race if I chose to still run but I also know that it wouldn’t be the experience that I was so excited for at all. Chicago is supposed to be one of the best marathons in the United States. Boasting a fast, flat course plus one of the largest spectating crowds, I had big dreams for race day! This is where money comes into play. It’s pretty pricey for me to fly to Chicago for 3 days plus the cost of hotels (surprisingly not too bad split between 3 girls though) and spending money. I’m not complaining, this is definitely something I want to spend my money on. However, what I don’t want to spend my money on is a miserable race experience. Yes, I would have lots of fun with my girlfriends exploring the city but let’s not forget the real reason I would be traveling there: to run. Ultimately, I know I won’t enjoy the race and this is most important to me.
Shout out to my wonderful Oiselle Volée ladies who helped me realize that my gut feeling was the right after all. I had posted on our team page about my dilemma and they all agreed that it was smartest to defer. It’a such an amazing race/course that I shouldn’t waste the experience. Plus, with Philly being my goal race just 6 weeks later, it doesn’t make any sense to risk injury running a marathon that I’m clearly under-prepared for. Also, another lady had hit defer the same day for the same reason so that made me feel a little bit better about myself. Thanks to my friends & parents, also, for listening to me go back and forth with myself about what I was going to do. Sometimes I just need to talk out loud to someone to get things off of my brain.
Obviously I’m pretty disappointed in myself. I allowed weeks pass by but wasn’t putting in the training. I let my friends down who I was supposed to be running with. I wasted $185 on registration that is non-refundable. However, there’s no sense in dwelling because I still have the chance to run it next year. It is what it is.