I’m still freaking out about Chicago. Bad. Granted I still have 5 more weeks but… I’m not feeling confident at all. However, I think I’ve figured out how to avoid continuously feeling bad about it over the next few weeks -> I’m just not even going to think about it/pretend I’m not even running it. What do I mean by that? Well, as of yesterday, my complete focus is on training for the Philly Marathon. I know that having this mentality will make things better for me. I decided to switch my goal race to Philly a few weeks ago but still have been constantly worrying about Chicago. I guess it’s normal since a marathon is no easy task but I’m sick of worrying.
I’m looking at the Chicago Marathon as just a little (26.2 mile) bump in the road. Wherever I’m at on race day, as far at fitness goes, is good enough for me. It’s just another long training run for my goal race. Whatever happens, happens. I know that I will finish no matter how miserable it is. Right now, I need to focus solely on Philly so I can stay on track and at least hit my goal for that race.
When I start to think about Chicago too much, it causes me to think negative thoughts/not feel good about myself. I don’t want to think/feel this way at all! Some of you may be thinking that I should drop out of the race but that’s not an option. Things have been going really well the last 2 weeks compared to Rut City a few weeks ago. I finally feel back on track with running, strength training, my diet & life in general. To keep things up, I’m going to try not worrying about Chicago anymore and just let it play out.
With that said, here are a few motivational quotes that are really hitting home from me right now: