After much internal struggle & deliberation over the last few weeks, I’ve come to the conclusion that transitioning to a vegan diet is not for me at this point in time. I plan on revisiting veganism again in a few months. In the meantime, I’m going to continue to focus on my vegetarian journey. I still believe in the vegan way which is why I’m feeling terribly hypocritical, but I know it’s for the best. I need to listen to my body, even if I don’t want to, and I haven’t been. My body is telling me that this is too much all at once. I really wanted to succeed with this lifestyle. I still do. So, maybe focusing on vegetarianism for the rest of the year is the right way to approach this transition… for me at least. That way, I can continue to research and eventually come up with a better plan that will actually make me succeed once I decide to try veganism again.
I feel like I’ve failed which I know is silly but I can’t help it. I need to accept that everyone has different needs. Mine are not being met right now which is affecting what is most important to me: marathon training. I can’t be feeling run-down 24/7 while training. These last few weeks have been a struggle as far as energy and motivation goes. While going to the RD next week will definitely help, I think I need to take a step back, slow down, and re-focus. Take things one step at a time. Master vegetarianism before trying to go full blown vegan.I still plan on experimenting with vegan recipes as I’ve truly been enjoying trying out so many new things. I want to continue to make some vegan choices while out and about as well. However, I don’t want to feel guilty anymore if I make the wrong decision. If it’s vegan, great! If not, I’m not going to beat myself up over it.
This was not an easy decision but I needed to be honest with myself. My main focus at this point is getting back on track with marathon training -> Chicago is TOO soon & I’m getting nervous!